Thanks for all your well wishes and concern – I am indeed better – thank goodness for dark rooms & fabulous drugs!
Today I wished those drugs could be used to numb some other things, but alas, I gotta work. And those drugs incapacitate me completely. Hence the loopy-ness….But life’s got to go on, as they say, there’s work to be done, life to be lived…
I frequently refer to the voices in my head. Today it seems they are screaming and shouting to be heard. I don’t have much time, so will only post briefly – to shut them up for a while at least….
My cousin’s daughter –
In all the whoohaa at work, I completely forgot about this lovely lass…
Brutally taken from us on 23 March 2006 by a stupid idiot.
They were in an accident. Her mom & dad survived but she eventually succumbed to her injuries.
She wasn’t even 15.
All I could think of – what a loss, how unfair!!
Why would God do this to anyone? Why a 15 year old? She had a promising future.
A beautiful girl indeed. In every way. She bought sunshine wherever she went. Such a kind and loving nature.
She was the youngest of only two daughters.
How does a parent go on after this?
How do you turn back to God after something like this?
I still ask these questions.
They are much stronger than I could ever hope to be. They humble me in their faith.
The case has still not been resolved. They apparently still need to find the culprit who actually caused the accident.
To this person – I hope you can sleep at night, and live with yourself. And I hope you never ever have live through what my cousin & her family had to go through.
Today 6 years ago was the beginning of the end of her journey. I didn’t know. She was ill, but I never expected this to be her final lap in the race for life. Every year I tell myself it gets better. Every year I convince myself it is better. Every year at this time, I want to hide. Am I lying to myself? Today it is just too much.