Happy Birthday, Baba
You are 11 today. Not a baby anymore – as you keep on reminding me. To me you will always be my baby. Whether you’re 40 and no longer mine, you will still be my baby.
I can only hope and pray that you will stay as you are. A bit of a stretch? Probably. You will change – you will grow taller, bigger. Your voice will break and you will become a young man. Then an adult. A husband. A father. You will have your own children (omw, so not something I want to contemplate….). You will have your own opinions and views – well, not that you don’t have them already! – but you will form different convictions to what you have now. Your personality as it is will only become stronger. I hope it will only strengthen and deepen, because you are a lovely person, caring, honest, loving, thoughtful….
Sometimes I wish I could stop time and keep you by my side forever. But alas, you are only loaned to me for a while. A fleeting moment. Yes, a few years. But time now seems so fickle. Yesterday you were a tiny tot. I had to do everything for you. You couldn’t survive without me. Now you don’t really need me anymore. It’s scaring the living daylights out of me. But its part of being a mom, I guess….I have to deal with you growing up and away from me….it’s part of life. But why does it have to happen? Why does it have to hurt me? Already? It’s too soon.
You should dream big. Don’t limit yourself. Don’t be limited by our expectations. Follow your heart and soul. Pursue it with passion. Leave no stone unturned. If friends hurt you, move on. There are more bonds to be formed, more friends to be made. You will love truly one day. It will hurt, but don’t lose hope of finding another. Always remember who you are, where you come from. Always keep your Faith. Pray to the God we believe in. Where we fail, He will guide you.
I truly hope and pray that you grow up to be the young man I see in you now. Full of promise. Strong. Hopeful. Enthusiastic. Caring. Loving. Thoughtful. That’s all I can do as a mom. To hope, dream for you, and pray…
You mean the world to me. I hope you know this.